Life of grays and hues ~ your choice (PART1)

In life, sometimes it comes to a point where you find yourself wandering. Struggling to look for yourself whenever you feel lost, anxious, confused, hurt, drained.

Back in High School - where everything was about getting grades define your IQ and gaining lifetime friends, everything seems to be easy. You wake up, eat breakfast, shower, get dressed, catch up with the flag ceremony (that often times you find boring and ridiculous), passing your subjects and enjoying every single event that your school is holding just to keep every student sane from the long hours and tiring boring (sometimes fun) days. Oh, High School life, so much memories to remember and treasure. Your first crush that you always waited in the corridor to pass just to brighten up your day. Your group of friends that you spent your ridiculously crazy days with. That one annoying person who does nothing but his/her merely presence annoyed you. Your first boyfriend/girlfriend whom you thought you're going to spend the rest of your life with. Talk about nostalgia. High School is where you enjoy being a teenager. High School is where you find your lifetime friends. High School is where you thought your life defined your totality. Guess what, NAT.

After High School, is where life is just getting started. It's a pre-orientation of what you will have to face in the real world - that on the latter part. Struggling to wake up to attend your 7AM class in a Science subject, which you thought that doesn't even help your course however you don't have a choice but to take it because it is required. Surviving every single day with the allowance you receive, which sometimes you think isn't enough, just to get by the whole month. Dealing with different kinds of people that will eventually, one, become your all day all night buddies whom will you spent your 4 years in college with (if you're lucky enough) - from the silly days, hell weeks, drunk nights up to the so-so boring normal sober days, or two, your worst nightmare that comes to life. You have to be ready for this, for after college, you'll meet more of them. 

When you start working, it is where your REAL LIFE begins. It is where you start finding and defining who you are and knowing what are you capable of. For some, it is where they'll eventually realize that the course they took in college isn't even what they are practicing right now but they don't have a choice because of their own reasons - want to get a job, experience, and most importantly earn. Day by day becomes a routine. 

There will be days where you'll be so excited going to work because of the people you'll be seeing in your office, or maybe because it's pay day, or you just got promoted, and there will be days where you'll feel like there's nothing to look forward to anymore. Suddenly you'll come to a point where you evaluate your life and trying to search where it is really leading you. Question is, what do you want to do? Where do you want to go?



*photos of people here have contributed much for who I am right now - from the worst part of their existence up to being one the greatest blessing that ever happened to me* 

to be continued...