Modern Heartbreak

Open the door

It's the look on your face
That tells me all I need to know
I'm sick to my stomach
But you seem okay with it
Tell me like it's casual

“My life is so fucking miserable

I don’t fucking deserve this 

Fuck you

My life is so fucking miserable”

He said.

They don't make the hurt like they used to
They say, "Don't you dance on our grave", but I do
So, pour me a glass, and we'll drink it away
'Cause this is the modern heartbreak

For every curse, every bang of the door

Every raise of your voice, 

The hate just grows more

The cut just goes deep

I laugh for an hour
Cry for a minute
I lost my keys, I lost my mind
If this was the game
Then, nobody would win it
It's hard to face the truth sometimes

I was told to go home

With no penny in my pocket

Coz I was the source of stress

I was told to go home

with no job to go back to

Coz he said we are not worth the stress

They don't make the hurt like they used to
They say, "Don't you dance on our gravе", but I do
So, pour me a glass, and we'll drink it away
'Cause this is thе modern heartbreak

My friends and family would tell me,

Reflect on the things that you do

It might be you who needs to change

You might need to adjust

But boy, oh boy, I hope they know the real you. 

So, let's give a cheers to dry all of our tears
This is the modern heartbreak

I'm a believer in givin' 'em hell
Cheers to Tequila for treating me well
It never cheated, as far I can tell

Months in therapy, I thought that it solved it. 

I was told that if I can give grace to forgive others then I should hell give grace to forgive myself. 

Followed the doctor’s order and I thought I am putting the broken pieces together. 

But it’s true what they say, 

when a glass is broken, it’s never gonna be the same again. 

No, it don't make the hurt like they used to
Say, "Don't you dance on our graves", but I do
So, pour me a glass, and we'll drink it away
'Cause this is the modern heartbreak
This is the modern heartbreak

I blame myself sometimes, 

coz this is one of the biggest grown up decision I made. 

I made a promise, made a vow, 

but I wonder how long will it take, 

for me to keep putting up the pieces back, 

of this broken glass. 

So, let's give a cheers to dry all of our tears
'Cause this is the modern heartbreak
This is the modern heartbreak

Every time I sleep at night, 

I feel like I am sleeping beside a stranger. 

I fear that one snap it will break, 

I fear for my life sometimes. 

Would I fight? Would I leave? Would I stay? 

I respect myself too much to be put into this situation. 

I’m nearing the edge. This broken glass that I’ve been trying to put together, my hands already bled. 

How long do I carry this burden? How long will I bleed? 

Would there be any light at the end of the tunnel? 

My eyes already ran dry

My ears are bleeding with the sharp words that you said

The pain burns in my skin, and runs through my stomach. 

I fear for my life sometimes… 

Do I deserve this too? 

Song by Spencer Sutherland